Thoughts..

So I went to Beltane thinking I was going to do this ritual around honoring my feminine side. I talked to someone about it for a month on and off. We talked about it in the car on the way down.
The funny thing is I didn't have to do a ritual. It just came to me. It still comes to me. I let my self be a woman at the Gathering. And many other parts of myself as well. Today at work the guys flirted with me for the first time so it must show. Its easy to flirt with someone you don't speak the same language with. Or at least that is what i percieved.

Its hard balancing here. I wondered today if in my search for this balance i seek, i wonder if those two selves will stay isolated from each others lives or will it merge into one flow of being?
i talk as though i have two different persons living in me, but its not that. its a way of being and moving through the world.

coming back was difficult the first day after sleeping in my bed. mostly challenges from someone i don't even know. but in reading the prayer list i learned to greet it at the door smiling, that seemed to help somehow.

aren't the colors on this album pretty? l look at them and feel happy.