2-26-09

I Am Birthed Into Being
I open wide my ability to receive love. I am receiving.
I dive into my ability to understand deeply. I am going deep.
I open up my ability to express that which wants to be expressed. I am
expressing.
I am seen.
I am heard.
I am acknowledged.
I am an expression of Wisdom and Blessing.
With ease, I open to getting done that which needs to be done. I am
accomplishing.
I open to my balance of joy and work. I am working joyfully.
I continue surrendering to the Source within me. I am an expression of
that Grace.
My body, mind, emotions and spirit are united in the unfolding of me.
Every thing and experience I need, I receive in gratitude, recognizing
its gift.
Fun is woven throughout my life.
My ability to listen with heartfelt presence is deepening and
widening.
I appreciate and spend time with my lovers,
friends and family.
There is time for the garden, gleaning, hiking, making love, and
enjoying the foods my body thrives on.
I follow the impetus of Spirit that leads me in my doing.
My doing flows with grace, ease, and great accomplishment.
Success is a natural outpouring of my alignment with Source.
Heavenly and Earthly energies flow through me and sustain me.
I am birthed into Being.
— J.L. in California

On working,

Hey things are going good at work, i am catching up to everyone and being on time in my flow there. And then of course there is "that one guy" who seems to always push my buttons but it feels like i am treating it differently and expecting less.

also about work:

lately i have been envisioning what it looks like to not work for a living. wondering how i would live, and what that looks like.
i miss the freedom of not having a "job"
i certainly don't miss the uncertainty of sleeping outside and i am pondering how to not work and not sleep outside unless i want to. How to sustain my self and interweave into my community and sustain the community at large. SM was talking about what it would look like to have our money generate in our community, and wondering how long it would take before it went "out" into the rest of the world....

You guys should really check out my music list on my other blog...I really like it so far.
hint, profile.

Just some thoughts...

Not that my life is ruled by desperate or frigid conditions although there have been time in my life....

Lately I have been going out doing "group" activities. I find myself running into the same group of people that hang out with each other.
I went to a planning meeting for the Wolf Creek Beltane gathering, I went out to see a show. That was fun seeing Bitch. Haven't been to a show since middle of last year when Devotcka came to town.
I also went out dancing which I haven't done in months. I had a nice time at all venues. I have been on the email list to go to some City Repair Workshops but so far I have been too wiped out from my new job to go. Although I am grateful that I get to go out in the evening and do social things.
I keep thinking about how I stepped out and away from the NW Naraya dance, I think I am afraid of the obvious intense we;moon type energy that I got from the flyer. I also keep seeing emails from people who are going and I feel some sense of loss....

I have my apartment set up for "one", I am making room in my life for me today.

Every being that lives, grows.
Each will grow despite harsh
conditions and beautify its
surroundings.

Like a tundra bloom,
the most striking and beautiful
flower is the one that blossoms
despite frigid, brutal conditions.

-- Judith Garrett Garrison
and Scott Sheperd

Trying and Working on "stuff" #2

So I haven't written anything for a while now. My new job is going okay. Getting used to the crazy amount of work is challenging. But so far things haven't been bad in any other way. Not that the amount of work is bad, just takes getting used to is all. I mean going from 1000lbs of dough on a busy day to 2000lbs of dough everyday takes getting used to. Whew! I am grateful for the day time hours though.
Although I feel guilty about my cat. I guess I am gone about the same amount of time but it feels different.

I have two days now without nicotine.

I am supposed to be going to the NW Naraya on Feb 19-22. I have the registration money in my checking account and I am afraid to let it go as it is all the money I have basically till I get paid again on the 20th. Can I really afford to take 4days off from work?
I really do want to go but I don't think it is financially smart to do so. I wonder what is different for me than it was last June when I went when I didn't even have a job? Oh. That dance was "no one turned away for lack of funds" Right.

Wow. I can't believe I am up this late. Good thing I don't have to be at work till 10am on Sundays.

On January 31, 1876, all Native Americans were ordered to move to reservations

Grandfather,
Look at our brokenness.

We know that in all creation
Only the human family
Has strayed from the Sacred Way.

We know that we are the ones
Who are divided
And we are the ones
Who must come back together
To walk in the Sacred Way.

Grandfather,
Sacred One,
Teach us love, compassion, and honor
That we may heal the earth
And heal each other.

--Ojibway prayer