Plugging away

All back now and trying to figure out what I want for a job. Trouble is I only know how to work in a kitchen and let me tell you,
I am ready for a change.
I am praying for a job that is supportive of my recovery, is some where that is meaningful work. Something I can easily give my energy to......like.......farming or working with queer youth.
hmmmm. maybe i ought to look into that deeper.

lately i have been studying with Leo Sunshine ( dvhdesigns@gmail.com) to work with stones. Cutting, polishing and finishing.
Mostly I have just been helping him move stuff and clean stuff. Need to learn the basics before I actually start grinding things to sell. I am excited to be learning lapidary. Check out http://stores.ebay.com/DVHdesigns?refid=store if you would like to look at some of his beautifal stones and cuttings.

Tomorrow I am going to take Isaac up to see gramma. Lately I have been in contact with my brother and took him to go see gramma a couple of days ago.

Lots of stuff going on.
Blessings
Roran

Ch-cha-changes.....facing the strain

Wow. Naraya was such a good experience for me.
And here I am trying to incorporate the things I prayed for into my life.
Such as reconnecting with my spirtual self and healing the rift between the feminane and masculine that lives within me.

SO far I have been remembering to smudge in the morning but not able to meditate. SOon I hope.

As far as the rift......I realize that the division lay in my own honoring of my two selves.
and I realize that doing the work and taking chances are part of the joy of living. And yet I often wonder why work is so hard.
Why it always leads to things being complicated. And yet through that all I know I am doing the right things for myself. That I continue to grow and become something other than what I have been in the past. That I continue to be real with myself and what is good for me and what is not.

Today has been one of reflection, sadness and determination.