I know I keep making the "right" choices....

But Damn! I am not having any fun!!
I try not to curse my awareness these days, (not that i am enlightened or anything)
but sometimes it just gets in the way.

I wish I could be as free here in the city as I am on the land. Where everyone knows there are no attachments unless you want them. I am looking forward to the day when I have my own little tribe, and when I need love or snuggling, I can just ask.

I don't want some weird connection with a stranger. I don't want a one night stand.
I want to get to know a person, and if I find that we fit, then I would like to introduce you to my girlfriend and see if she
likes you too. And if we don't fit, well, you can still be my friend, right?

Right?!
People don't know how to be friends if things don't work out. At least that has been my experience.
I want to change that.

I am honest in my intention.
I am asking for what I need.
I am no longer holding resentment.
I am open in my intention and desire.
I am learning how to say what it is i am feeling and thinking.