QueerMagic....crows and crying.

Once again I had a cathartic experience at a gathering.
Someone reached into my heart chakra and moved some stuff around
sobbing ensued....big sounds...deep....

my body feels the same and i been wondering what it was that i had been holding
my perception is a bit different....
might have something to do with making the choice to be happy and to create my own happiness...

someone told me that fear is tied into the ego..
that i should buy a book about dharma...
it felt good so i am going to look into it...

i found a young crow hanging from a fence about a week ago
i only noticed cause of the kitty running across my path.
it was all white except for the tip of its tail which was black
i took the bird to Lone Fir Cemetary...
then the people that were there didn't feel right so
i brought the bird home with me....it rode in my hand while i was
riding my bike. must have been pretty dazed.
i feel bad cause it told me to take it back
and in my desire to hold something wild close to my heart
i probably harmed it in some way. Do crows have family? Do they flock together?

The bird ate some food i put in the yard then hopped into the bushes
and i haven't seen it since. I keep praying that its alive and eating
and no other birds pick on it..i keep praying for it to find its home...