Sometimes I feel like this..........

...its so peaceful looking. and yet am i trapped or just swimming?

I have been gathering documents to present to a background check so that I may volunteer at SMYRC. I understand why they would need one, but gee, it is bringing up a lot of stuff for me. Shame, frustration, grateful not to live that life anymore.

My job is kicking my ass. I often wonder what the hell I am killing myself for. So tired and sore. Makes me grumpy. I stated when I first got that job that I would start going to acupuncture and working out but I haven't done it yet. I know it would make me feel better but I keep procrastinating around it. Plus I am just too tired to cook and shop for food most of the week.