wait a minute.........

did i say awkward? no actually i am not good at communicating.
sometimes i just flake out and don't call or can't come up with a concrete feeling or simply am just not able to be there. that's a human being for ya!

all i could do last night was repeat the Serenity Prayer over and over again at work. the new guy(not me) is training the new guy and the way i saw it was someone is out of there so i asked my boss if he was going to fire me and and he looked at me and said in that accent he has -you crazy?- I nodded my head yes, of course........

okay, so it feels good that he likes my work but now i need to work on social skills at work. some environments its just easy, others it's not.....now that is awkward.
stupid me i told someone i don't know that well that i was trans and now i wonder why some workers won't even look at me or say good morning although they do to the guy right across from me. invisible hurts.

TOOOOO HOT!!!!! Too hot! too hot! can't sleep in my room for work, sunside in the afternoon, no insulation in my room. i asked my roommate about it and was told i would have to move out of my room for that to happen. I understand, but what a drag. too hot! TOO HOT! too hot! maybe i will just make a nice cool bed in the basement....:-)

exercise helps but still depressed......