Sunday, June 22, 2008

Ch-cha-changes.....facing the strain

Wow. Naraya was such a good experience for me.
And here I am trying to incorporate the things I prayed for into my life.
Such as reconnecting with my spirtual self and healing the rift between the feminane and masculine that lives within me.

SO far I have been remembering to smudge in the morning but not able to meditate. SOon I hope.

As far as the rift......I realize that the division lay in my own honoring of my two selves.
and I realize that doing the work and taking chances are part of the joy of living. And yet I often wonder why work is so hard.
Why it always leads to things being complicated. And yet through that all I know I am doing the right things for myself. That I continue to grow and become something other than what I have been in the past. That I continue to be real with myself and what is good for me and what is not.

Today has been one of reflection, sadness and determination.

1 comment:

AsterMax said...

hey roran,
seems like you're on the track. don't fret about not being able to meditate for long periods- it takes practice. That's why they call it a practice ;o)
just taking a moment to be present with yourself- breath, the wind, the way light is playing on the leaves is a form of meditation.
thought you might like to look at my blog to get an idea of where I'm coming from...
http://astervision.blogspot.com/